"But hey, I can't tell you some miraculous way to stop downfalls or how to get right back after one cause I haven't quite figured it out as well. But in time, all will heal. :)"
Read through the blog & am so glad that I actually wrote down parts of my senior year in school, just to go back and relive how I felt for that little time in life. And it made me feel like I should probably write a little bit about college so here it isss.
From the last post I think you can probably tell that I'm not enjoying college all that much. Yeap, I still think A-Level was one of the worst decision I made in my life. In school, whenever I said I would be failing a subject, I would miraculously end up getting a B or even sometimes a freaking A. In college, when I say I'll hopefully pass a subject... I fail. Just finished my first semester exams and from how I felt I did, I am foreseeing 1A, 1B, 1C and 1D (hahahah not even joking) but we'll see.
And yeah! I actually survived through the first (out of 3) semester in college! It just hit me how 5 months has already passed, how it feels like so much yet so little has happened in this time, good and bad.
For starters, I have finally adapted to my college schedule - long class hours, quick lunches at Rock, spending most of my time in the library (I love that place). I wouldn't say that college is all that tiring, because I remember that school was so much more tiring - constantly running up and down for prefects duties, staying up till 2, 3AM to finish up whatever St John work or to study, then waking up at 6AM, staying back for various sports activities. That was tiring. College just feels a lot more mentally taxing, and the stress of being so stupid amagash (I question myself why am I so stupid and why did I take A-Level on a daily basis & I am honestly being serious)
People-wise, for A-Level, we have a set group of classmates for every class, just like how we did in school, so it's pretty cool. We don't have that steady group of friends that we hang out with and join everything together or go everywhere together like we did in school, but I like how we can just simply shout "WE'RE GOING TO ROCK" (it's a makan place, not meaning we are going to rock in some party or smtg lol) and whoever who wants to come would just come, but you can just about go wherever you want on your own too, and nobody really cares.
I also joined the Christian Fellowship in Sunway & I love it. It's nothing compared to the love I had for the SP CF, but as always, it's what I look forward to every week and am grateful for it. And as I said in my last post, I am the vice president for the A-Level student council & I still hate it hahahah sorry guize.
In this very short 5 months, I have already fallen in love and had my heart broken. But all is well, I do not regret a thing - it made me grow deeper in my faith, it broke me free from one of my biggest chains & it made me realize that I can be strong even on my own :)
I have 2 weeks of sem break till the second semester begins, and am already having a great time. The huge relief is real - to be back with the familiar school people. Only 3 days into the holiday and I have already gone back to school for a visit & meeting, walked back after that (never thought I would miss that BUT I DO), joined worship practice with the little ones, played captain ball & am going for a movie later on. Am so excited for CF camp tomorrow and what the rest of the 2 weeks has in store for me!
Till next time!
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