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Will miss this bunch of little kids <3

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Met up for lunch with Kirtana, my class monitor from school (also, she sat behind me in Form 4 and in front of me in Form 5, and we used to annoy each other on a daily basis). It was so good being able to just talk and catch on how college has been, how our courses are, about the new people we've met, and of course, about how much we miss school. 

Had CF later on in the evening, as it was the last CF meeting for the semester. It was a pretty chill day, worship, speeches from those graduating, Skyping with the fantastic 4, and BurgerLab for dinner (and I forgot to take a photo of my burger sobs T_T) 

Also, I have always felt like I didn't have much friends in the SCF apart from one or two that I usually stick to since earlier in the year, and whenever those few weren't around, I would feel awkward and out of place. Finally, finally, at the end of the semester, I've finally warmed up to the others and actually feel like I belong in a family. It took me long enough, but I am grateful for this little family I've found and have been so unexpectingly kind to me (you guise know who you are, and thank you :) )

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Met up with the second family for dinner at Jemari, and I was finally able to speak in BM again omg HAHAHAH. I have been so deprived of speaking in BM that I feel like I'm slowly losing my touch, but am grateful to be able to refresh it when meeting up with this bunch. 

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It is Sunday night (technically Monday already, considering it is past 12AM), and I am going back to college tomorrow. Despite how I am not looking forward to it... I am not despising it either. I have come to terms that I am taking A-Level and I simply have to deal with it, and instead of hating it and complaining about it all the time, I'll just have to make do and work harder the best I can. 

The past 2 weeks have been amazing, and I have to thank these people for that <3 (if you're wondering who the emoji at the right bottom corner represents, it's Wai Meng. Forgot to take a photo with him when we went out for nandos the other day, and the emoji just totally sums him up HEH)

Sem 2, here I come!

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Aiman got back from Australia just in time for my sem break and invited us over for his sister's wedding -

Note how in the last photo, you can see the base of my left shoe is senget, yeap that's cause my shoe broke halfway zzz so after the wedding we went to Subang Parade so that I could buy a new pair of shoes, then rush for Ji's church's Teens Club BBQ - 

Reunited with this bunch (and also, note new shoes!)

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Went over to Marissa's place in the afternoon for a mahjong session (also any excuse just to hang out cause EXAMS OVER WOOOO) and later on we went over to Angel's Park where we played basketball and I jogged.

Over all, the first week of the sem break was well, well spent. It was great being able to spend time with the familiar school people again, and I never thought that I'd find such comfort in simply spending time with this bunch again. 

Hope y'all are having as great week as I am & take care!

KJ·SP CF Camp 2015! - Fit for Christ

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Hot springs -

Games -

First gift from my guardian angel -

Super cute dog at the campsite -

Stream trotting -

Formal night -

And funny photos for the last day -

The people of the camp-

Initially when I found out that we were going to combine camps with another school this year, I was dreading it because I felt as if the camp would have been filled with unfamiliar people, people who wouldn't find the same humour as we do, upset because most of the familiar bunch I knew from school wouldn't be at the camp this time. I also had second thoughts because the camp was set in the middle of the first week of my sem break, taking up almost the whole week to prepare for my workshop and the other things that needed help on for the camp, when I should be studying and catching up for college.

But I was completely thrown off guard at how well both schools have bonded over the past 3 days, this camp being one that I can honestly say was the best I've had over the past years I was in school. There was no reception/line/signal/wifi/data coverage at all at the campsite, which was a good thing; because there is a sense of relief being able to completely detach from the internet & other distractions. I still remember the first camp I went and they kept our phones from us, and I felt so antsy about it at first, but by the end of the camp, I realized how good it felt to be away from technology. It gave us more time to actually focus & ponder on our message, to talk and have fellowship and to play games (yay!)

I don't have a single regret going for the camp, instead feeling so incredibly blessed in return. The message that Pastor Gurmit (also our speaker back in 2012 and 2013, yeap, he's really good) was clear and it helped me take steps that I was always too afraid of taking. Amazing things have happened over these 3 days, and I am blessed. :)

On a side note, I was also the photographer for the camp, and being the klutz I am... I tripped and fell while holding the camera, and watched as the camera hit the ground and its lens breaking into many pieces T-T. Have always thought my klutziness was something amusing but not anymore T-T

^above being also the reason why there weren't any photos of formal night aka the last night sigh. have been the photographer for the past 4 years and feel like I've failed this time :'(

All in all, yay to an awesome camp! :)

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"But hey, I can't tell you some miraculous way to stop downfalls or how to get right back after one cause I haven't quite figured it out as well. But in time, all will heal. :)"

Read through the blog & am so glad that I actually wrote down parts of my senior year in school, just to go back and relive how I felt for that little time in life. And it made me feel like I should probably write a little bit about college so here it isss.

From the last post I think you can probably tell that I'm not enjoying college all that much. Yeap, I still think A-Level was one of the worst decision I made in my life. In school, whenever I said I would be failing a subject, I would miraculously end up getting a B or even sometimes a freaking A. In college, when I say I'll hopefully pass a subject... I fail. Just finished my first semester exams and from how I felt I did, I am foreseeing 1A, 1B, 1C and 1D (hahahah not even joking) but we'll see.

And yeah! I actually survived through the first (out of 3) semester in college! It just hit me how 5 months has already passed, how it feels like so much yet so little has happened in this time, good and bad.

For starters, I have finally adapted to my college schedule  - long class hours, quick lunches at Rock, spending most of my time in the library (I love that place). I wouldn't say that college is all that tiring, because I remember that school was so much more tiring - constantly running up and down for prefects duties, staying up till 2, 3AM to finish up whatever St John work or to study, then waking up at 6AM, staying back for various sports activities. That was tiring. College just feels a lot more mentally taxing, and the stress of being so stupid amagash (I question myself why am I so stupid and why did I take A-Level on a daily basis & I am honestly being serious)

People-wise, for A-Level, we have a set group of classmates for every class, just like how we did in school, so it's pretty cool. We don't have that steady group of friends that we hang out with and join everything together or go everywhere together like we did in school, but I like how we can just simply shout "WE'RE GOING TO ROCK" (it's a makan place, not meaning we are going to rock in some party or smtg lol) and whoever who wants to come would just come, but you can just about go wherever you want on your own too, and nobody really cares.

I also joined the Christian Fellowship in Sunway & I love it. It's nothing compared to the love I had for the SP CF, but as always, it's what I look forward to every week and am grateful for it. And as I said in my last post, I am the vice president for the A-Level student council & I still hate it hahahah sorry guize.

In this very short 5 months, I have already fallen in love and had my heart broken. But all is well, I do not regret a thing - it made me grow deeper in my faith, it broke me free from one of my biggest chains & it made me realize that I can be strong even on my own :)

I have 2 weeks of sem break till the second semester begins, and am already having a great time. The huge relief is real - to be back with the familiar school people. Only 3 days into the holiday and I have already gone back to school for a visit & meeting, walked back after that (never thought I would miss that BUT I DO), joined worship practice with the little ones, played captain ball & am going for a movie later on. Am so excited for CF camp tomorrow and what the rest of the 2 weeks has in store for me!

Till next time!