"6 months gone & I'm still reaching even though I know you're not there. I was playing back a thousand memories baby, thinking bout everything we've been through. Maybe I've been going back too much lately, when time stood still & I had you"

and...

I've been sitting here for over an hour watching my brother and cousin play arcade basketball. 

What am I doing asdfghjkl

I miss my prefects. I miss the SPCF. I miss the SP people. I miss people who actually cared for me and took me as I am.

It's a night of self-loathing, self-pity, call it whatever you want, think as lowly as you want of me - 

Don't worry, I don't like me too.